Gma Sassy

10/10/10

2010-10-10T21:01:00.002-05:00

Happy Binary Day...yea, being a computer dork I'm allowed to say that...and it won't be our last this year! Tomorrow is another...and next month we get a couple too...how fun!

So it's been almost a year since I posted anything here...I'm not a very good blogger...and I'm okay with that. Lots of stuff went on in the last year and yet sometimes I feel that not much has happened at all...my biggest good thing is I'm not feeling lonely right now...and that is always a good thing. I've actually been feeling pretty good and positive lately which, for anyone that knows me, is a real switch for me...I'm usually so pessimistic...but for the time being, I'm optimistic about quite a bit...and I rather like the feeling. This in no way means I'm turning away from my Bitchalicious and Bitch-On-Heels attitudes...oh no no no...it just means I may have a smile on my face more often that makes you wonder what the heck I'm up to...

Out of sorts

2009-11-02T19:13:00.003-06:00

I'm feeling out of sorts lately...not physically per se (although yes, this week I'm a bit under the weather)...but more out of sorts about me. I'm not enjoying myself much lately...not enjoying me. And usually, I'm pretty happy spending time with me. But lately, I find I have these pangs of loneliness that overwhelm me...but for what I pine, I do not know. I realize this is a tough time of year for me...the holidays don't make me as happy as they once did...I miss family that is no longer with me - those who have departed this world and those who just live too damn far away. I'm okay that I'm alone...that's a choice I've made and is really not a feeling...it's my option as to what is best for my life. So for me being alone is very different than "lonely"...and today, I'm just lonely...and missing something...almost like I'm missing a part of me. The full moon is not helping matters for me...

But, I am a Gemini...so I'm sure by the morning I'll probably be back to my normal bitch self...so I got that going for me. Which is nice.

Here we go again...

2009-03-02T08:36:00.002-06:00

Back on the rollercoaster for another ride...I'm gonna keep riding until I either throw up or get kicked off.

So I'm all in once again...and while I'm cautiously optimistic, I do have my eyes wide open...

And so it goes...

2009-02-17T20:33:00.002-06:00

My interesting turns have hit their dead-end as of 8:19 this morning...got the dreaded call that he is going to "make things work" with the ex-girlfriend. Well, it was fun while it lasted and I took the high road and wished him the ex-woman the best of luck and that I hope he is happy. Because truly, that's all I ever wanted for him...he deserves to be happy no matter what...don't we all? So, I'm back to reality and I suppose that's probably a good thing. Fast and furious doesn't typically end up working out does it now...even when there's a past with history.

Win some, lose some...again, it's all in playing it how it's laid...I went all in...this time the cards didn't lay my way...

Sometimes...

2009-02-12T18:12:00.002-06:00

Life takes interesting twists and turns...and you end up bumping into the past...and it turns out to be a really good thing. I bumped into a long time part of my past about 11 or so days ago...and it's been an interesting ride ever since. I'm definitely enjoying the ride and I'm gonna just go with it. No BS. No stressing. No other shoe dropping. None of that is popping into my head at all...which is so unlike me and so refreshing. I guess at this point in my life I've decided there's no point in stressing about what might happen or could happen or where things are "going"...sometimes you just have to play it as it's laid.

Snowy Days

2009-01-10T21:09:00.002-06:00

So we're back to getting snow here in the heartland...can I just say that I'm very tired of winter already and I know I've still got a long way to go. 13 inches of snow today is just a tad much for me though. I give thanks for my awesome neighbors though...Jack was out most of the early part of the day with his snowblower...the only thing I had to clear out today was the back deck so the dog had a place to do her bidness.

And speaking of my neighbors...Jack was first to visit me today while he was shoveling the front porch, I invited him in for some coffee and to warm up. We chitchatted for a bit. I have known for awhile (2 year almost now) that he and his wife really miss my stepmom. And today I learned that he thinks of me as a daughter. That was a really nice thing to hear...I appreciate and love my neighbors...I rely on them for quite a bit, I know I can count on them and I hope that they know they can count on me too. They are my "extra" parents. Jean came to see me after Jack's visit...it was great to have her over here too -- I know she doesn't like to come over often as she thinks that she's interrupting my homework but the thing is, I welcome the breaks! I keep telling her that too.

So that was my snow day...visits from my great neighbors to take my mind off homework for a little bit, a nice fire going, a great workout, feeling happy and content with where I am, and then some guilty pleasure (read: bad) movies...all in all, it was a really good day.

Rambling on...

2008-12-12T18:36:00.003-06:00

Apparently I don't have many interesting things to say or I'd be posting blogs a bit more often, eh? I figure I should get back in the swing of things as my family seems to be taking an interest in this blogging stuff and I can keep up with them this way now too.

I'm finding as the weather becomes colder I am spending more time locked up inside my house rather than venturing out in the big cold world. The older I get, the less I want to be out in this weather...yes, I make my treks to work and back...or to the grocery store...but other than that I've been staying in the house. I use school as my excuse for keeping my detained in here but that's not always the case...I can put off that homework for a couple hours and get outside if I really wanted to...and THAT is the heart of the matter -- I really don't want to leave my house. I like my house. I like spending time in my house. I enjoy hanging out with my dog and cat...snuggling up on the couch with my glass of wine or cup of hot chocolate (spiked with baileys) or coffee...sometimes watching TV, sometime reading books, sometimes crocheting and sometimes must doing NOTHING but watching out the window at the snow blowing around. Am I becoming anti-social? Is it unhealthy to spend this time alone? No, I don't think I'm anti-social nor is it unhealthy to hibernate for a bit in the winter months...for me, its a needed respite from the crazy noise of my daily working world...home is my haven where I can regroup and recover in order to face Monday - Friday. I bet there are many that feel about their homes the same way I do.

So I say -- Enjoy time with yourself in the comfort of your safe haven home...doing nothing, doing something...doesn't much matter as long as you take and make time for YOU.

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2008-05-23T09:08:00.001-05:00

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